The Call to Weaving Light

Something has been returning since I came to Oregon.

Pieces of myself I thought I had lost. My voice. My creativity. My intuition. My relationship with my body. And lately I have found myself wondering about the version of me who lived in Costa Rica.

Was I healthier there?

Was I just more active? Was it the food, the climate, the ocean, the land? Why did my body seem to work differently there?

Then today I watched another creator weaving with her hands in a video, and I listened to @Lightweaver’s story.

Something just clicked.

I recognized the movements. And felt it in my body.
Because my hands used to do them too.
And suddenly a completely different possibility entered the question I had been asking.
Maybe I wasn’t simply moving more in Costa Rica.
Maybe I was moving energy.
Maybe I was weaving light.

To understand why that realization feels so significant,
I have to go back much further than Costa Rica.

All my life, digestion and weight were issues for me. Then in 2017, I had surgery for two very large ovarian cysts and had complications. I woke up after losing blood and a surgery that took twice as long and a scar across my abdomen. And then a formal diagnosis of PCOS, endometriosis and fibroids that were deemed noncancerous, and I was told they had removed my ovaries and fallopian tubes.

So I would no longer be having biological children.
Yay for pain meds. And time to process what that all meant.

But a year later, I went to a new doctor and told her I was still having a flow. She told me maybe I got the name of my surgery wrong? I knew I hadn’t.

Turns out after a CT I still had one and a half ovaries.

Apparently you can regenerate certain organs. A story for another time.

Since high school I had terrible monthly menstruation and in 2004 I had food allergies, mood swings, joint pain and all kinds of symptoms, and now it all made sense. And before you say it every doctor I had was a woman.

I never pursued another diagnosis, treatment or medication. I remember thinking that if no one had figured out what was happening in my body for 20 years, I was going to have to learn how to work with it myself.

And then the pandemic happened. Strangely, I began to heal.

Not completely, but enough that I could finally see how much of what I carried in my body was connected to stress, survival, censoring my words and suppressing my emotions for most of my life.

I had been the peacekeeper. The loud one. The black sheep. The one who could feel what was happening underneath what everyone else was saying.

Eventually, I became a therapist because why not get paid for the things people had naturally come to me for my entire life. Whether I was at work, at a bar, or grocery store. I studied the psyche, trauma, attachment, art therapy, creativity and the body.
And in many ways, I think I was studying myself.

During the pandemic, I had to close my nonprofit. And when I asked myself where felt like home, I knew I needed to leave the United States. I thought I was going to Costa Rica to host retreats and support other people.

Turns out I was also leaving to return to myself. To heal.
And, eventually, to remember.

In March 2022, I was guided to start a TikTok account. Eventually I began going live and leading morning meditations. I would put music on, drop into the meditation, and one day my hands just started moving.

I wasn’t consciously deciding what they should do.
They just moved.

Sometimes they moved around my body. Sometimes through the space around me. Sometimes they formed shapes and patterns I didn’t understand. I would follow them until whatever was moving felt complete.

At night before bed, there were times I would move through entire sequences. It almost felt like a movement language. It wasn’t choreographed, and I wasn’t trying to make anything happen. My body simply knew it needed to keep going until the energy stopped. Almost like the movement sequences in The OA, just less choreographed.

I never really had language for it. I just did it.

And I did a lot of it in Costa Rica.
But it wasn’t only my hands.
My voice began changing too.

In 2023 during a retreat my friend Lily and I were doing energy healing for one of my clients for her ears. Before I knew it a tone in a song struck a chord likely in my client and inside me like a sound bowl and all of a sudden sounds and tones were coming through me. I wasn’t consciously constructing it. It just felt like a release. Like I was being a conduit to move the energy. Next thing I knew we were doing 1:1 healing in this way for all of the women.

Sometimes there were words or syllables I didn’t recognize. One of the women exclaimed when she sat up “it feels like you released a scream that I had been holding in my heart for 2 years.” This all I eventually just called light language.

At times the sound and movement seemed connected, almost as though my hands and voice were participating in the same wave of energy. When I was live on TikTok participants in the comments would share what they felt, how things were moving and I knew this was possible but wow.
Over time, other pieces entered my life.

Somatic practices. Ceremony. Shamanic and earth-based traditions. Meditation. Energy work. Sound. Movement.

I never sat down and decided to combine these things into a modality.
I followed what arrived and surrendered.
The more I learn about light weaving now, the more I recognize something I have already been doing.

Light weaving can involve using the hands and body to move, shape or direct energy through space. When combined with vocal toning, intuitive sound and somatic or shamanic movement, the body and voice become the instruments.
That stopped me.

Because suddenly I could see a thread running through things I had thought were separate. Art. Movement. Voice. Energy. Earth. Body. Expression.

As an art therapist, I already understood that everything does not have to be processed through words. The body communicates. Images communicate. Movement communicates. Sound communicates. Creativity can give form to something before the conscious mind understands what it is.

Maybe these were never separate practices for me.
Maybe I had been learning different pieces of the same language.

Which brings me back to the question I have been asking:
Was I better in Costa Rica?
Maybe part of the answer is that I was moving more than my physical body.
I was also moving light.
I was letting energy move through my hands, my body, my voice and the space around me instead of holding everything inside.

And now I’m discovering others who call this light weaving.

That recognition sent me back into my own blueprint because this is what I love about Astrology, Human Design and Gene Keys. Sometimes they give language to something you have already been living.

I was born with my Sagittarius Sun at approximately 23 degrees, within a few degrees of the Galactic Center at the time of my birth.

In modern astrology, the Galactic Center is associated with expanded consciousness, information and transmission, what some people experience as receiving information or downloads beyond the ordinary thinking mind.

It makes me think of the Magician in Tarot.
One hand reaching toward the heavens. One toward the Earth.
Receive. Create. Transmit. And suddenly that symbolism feels very different to me.

Sagittarius searches for truth, meaning and what exists beyond the worldview we have been given. My Sun sits in my 5th house, the part of the chart connected to creativity, self-expression, art, play and what wants to be created through us. And this is also why your Sun sign isn’t basic our understanding of it is. Combined with your midheaven it shows your soul’s purpose and evolution in this lifetime.

Then there is Human Design.

I am a Splenic Manifestor with a defined Throat.
Manifestors are here to initiate. Splenic authority is instinctive and immediate. It is the quiet knowing that can arrive through the body before the mind has figured out why.

I also carry the 57–20 Channel, sometimes called the Channel of the Brainwave, connecting intuitive awareness with expression in the present moment.
I know. It moves. I express it.

Suddenly I could see the same pattern appearing in different languages.
I wasn’t learning choreography. I wasn’t deciding what movement should come next. My hands knew where they wanted to go. My voice released a sound. My body knew when to continue.
And my body knew when it was complete. That is how a Manifestor Urge and the Spleen work. Abruptly it is complete.

The experience came first. The language arrived years later. And maybe that is part of remembering.

We spend so much time looking outside ourselves for someone to tell us who we are, when sometimes our bodies have been speaking the language all along.

Somewhere over the last couple of years, though, the weaving became quieter.
My attention turned inward. There were pieces of myself I still needed to reclaim.

Grief I needed to feel. Patterns I needed to see.

Parts of my story I needed to understand differently.

Parts of myself I had abandoned, hidden, protected or left behind.

For a while, I thought I had lost my magic.
Now I wonder if the weaving never stopped.
Maybe the energy simply turned inward.
Maybe I was weaving myself back together.

The last two years have asked me to become whole enough to hold more of myself. To reclaim my voice. My body. My creativity. My intuition. My shadow. My power. My tenderness. The parts I had lost and the parts I had learned to leave behind.

And now, here in Oregon, something is beginning to move again.
I can feel it. Watching someone else’s hands move today, I recognized something before my mind could explain it. I know that movement.
My body knows that language. Light weaving returns.
And it is time. This chapter is complete.

Not learning something new, but encountering something you have somehow always known. A movement. A sound. A symbol. A place.

A way your hands know where to go before your mind has decided what they are doing.
This is also why I don’t think our blueprints are rulebooks. Astrology, Human Design and Gene Keys don’t need to tell us who we are.

Sometimes they simply illuminate the architecture beneath what we have already been living.
They help us recognize ourselves.

And at almost 50, moving through the final stretch of my Chiron return, that feels especially significant.

I am not the same person who began weaving in Costa Rica.
I know myself differently now.
I trust my body differently.
I trust what moves through me differently.
And I no longer need to understand everything before I allow myself to experience it.

Things are about to get wild.
I thought I had lost my magic.
Now I know it was waiting for me to close the loop.
As my Chiron return ends, I begin.

I rise. And apparently, I weave too.

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